Models: Jin Dachuan, Rock Ji
Photographer: Jumbo Tsui
I had my first desire to delete this blog.
My need for control and cravings for privacy has been growing stronger ever since I turned 18 in 2012.
Esp. privacy. I’ve always been opened about my life on this blog. It was my safe haven. I remember writing posts that truly were secret cries for help. But now that I got the help I needed, I started to resent how much of my life I poured into this blog instead of talking to someone in person. For some this blog is an inspiration, but for me it’s a reminder of my struggles as an adolescent.
I was thinking about making a new everything. New blog. new name, ect. I wanted to run away from “on win” but part of me wants to fully embrace my past and transition this blog into something more evolved.
Plus I know I’ve been holding back the silly, happier side of myself from the world to see. My life isn’t all about dark clouds or demons; only 85% of it is.
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He told me I am beautiful,
I can’t, I am sorry, but does he even know how much these words mean to me because nobody every really said it with a second thought.
I’ll be back on tumblr soon enough…I miss my tumblr fam. Until then, here’s my new doggy and I.
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